oh.........i'm so sorry. don't beat yourself up. just figure out how to take care of yourself and do what you can about it. i know it hurts and affairs of the heart aren't ever easy...but you'll be okay. i've never loved two people at the same time, but i think i understand your feelings. i loved someone else while married to another man and that was a horrible period of my life. PM me if you want to...xoxoxo Pat