I finally have a name for my problem. A while ago I was asking why I practically faint after getting a needle, regardless of not feeling afraid before-hand. I researched it a bit more and "vasovagal trypanophobia" is what I have.
I wasn't worrying about it too much, as my father didn't really seem to be leaning to get my shots any time soon, but he has been reminding me quite frequently now and it's starting to get to me. I feel tense and anxious just thinking about it.. Not scared like I said, I don't feel like I'm going to cry or anything, but I'm not looking forward to it.. I don't want to faint, I don't want to go through the symptoms, I don't want to now know what my problem is. Before at least I could think "perhaps I was only over reacting" but I know now, and really, knowing seems to have made it worse.
I've always had this ever since I was a child I was deathly afraid of shots. When I was a toddler I would fight with the doctors, scream, cry, kick and bite. I had to be held down by my parents with my mouth covered (which while freaking out feels like you're about to suffocate) just to get shots. I have many memories of this, even when it came to taking out splinters and such I was bad. Today my blood pressure drops, I feel nauseous, get tunnel vision, sweats, etc.. Even though it's not as "traumatic" as it once was it's not something I look forward to.
I have no idea how to deal and going to a happy place hasn't been a solution..
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