Don't worry I am not suicidal,I know how the pain of losing someone that way never goes away and would not do that to my family. What I am talking about is just my life in general, I am at real risk of losing my husband, he is sick of how I am how I act and pretty much everything I do. What I don't is as much a problem as what I do.because I work nights I sleep most of the day,the family had Pizza there was none left for me when I got up but my husband had saved money for me to buy sandwhich. I felt left out hurt and like I was being shown what these feelings feel like, he felt like my "temper tantrum" just showed that I am selfish, self centered and don't appreciate what I have, I don't "give " him what he needs without him having to "pay" for it later sometimes that is true . I am trying to improve all this, and waiting impatiently for my evaluation and subsequent treatment with a counselor, just hope he doesn't give up on me before I have a chance to get better.