((((((nice girl))))) i really appreciate the post and support. i do try doing things i enjoy but to be honest it doesnt help much the noise/static/voices inside my head demand for the harm and even at times going outside is hard because im a lil agoraphobic. i cant read because holding a train of thought for more than a page or 2 becomes a chore ugh im just gonna have to figure out something to do even the rubberband thing on the arm popping it didnt work im going to talk to my therapist today and see if he has anymore ideas about ways to substitute

im sorry to hear that you are dealing with issues also - i know how hard it is for me and i wouldnt wish this on anyone thank u again for sharing with me i dont feel quite so alone in this now and for that i am greatful