Hi Vickie, welcome to PC. I'm so sorry for what you had to go through. I'm so happy, however, that you do have a therapist. I would think that working on expressing your feelings would be a way out of the SI habit. I hope that you are working on this with your therapist. I'll bet that you picked up all sorts of messages while growing up about why you can't and shouldn't express your feelings.

I'm here to support you on your journey...........