Khayrah, I was in a very similar place as you're in. One day I was out for lunch with my children's father, his mom, his sister, our 3 kids (2 years, 1 year, and our 5 week old). From behind me, I heard "aren't you gonna say hi to your daughter and your girlfriend?" There was 2 women and a like a 6 month old baby behind me. We started couples therapy, and we decided to stay together. About 2 years later I realized that our kids were learning to disrespect people in part due to my letting their dad disrespect me... I had finally had enough a couple months later, and kicked him out. A year and a half ago, I contacted an agency that offers group therapy for victims of domestic abuse to help someone else... Not believing that I had been in an abusive relationship myself... They convinced me to check it out, I'm so glad I did. I have gained so much... confidence, validation, self worth, just so much is more positive in my life now... I still have a long way to go, but I'm glad I started there... I urge you to look into a program in your area like the one I was in... They never told any of us to leave our abusers, in fact I was one of the few that had left my abusive relationship... You could go to the group, even if you're not sure if you want to end the relationship or not... Good luck! I'm here if you need someone...