Yes Sleeps, huby does know all. That is one of the greatest things about our relationship is the honesty and openess we have. My husband never understood how I could have developed feelings for the other person. He said that sex is sex and nothing more. Yes, I agree that to a point sex is sex but when it is continual, for a long period of time, I developed feelings I shouldnt have.

The friend left today. I did not allow myself to do "anything" while he was here. It wasnt until last night that all the feelings came rushing back.

I am a %#@&#! mess. I am so %#@&#! stupid and %#@&#! in the head for getting into deep.