I guess it wasn't just a once thing...there was another too, I even packed to go...but when I'm not in psychosis, I'm averaging a 60% or higher good. I don't know if psychosis is coming more frequently or ending up lasting longer...its hard to tell, for me.

At the moment, I'm tired and a bit confused about this whole going back to the hospital situ...but feeling alright. Should I really be thinking of hospital if, like, now I'm not feeling the need for hospitalization? I don't know...

I haven't unpacked completely from the last time I almost went in, but my husband tries everything to keep me from going back. Having my sister come over...going to work with him...periodic calling when I'm feeling bad...coming home from work when I'm in psychosis because he knows that when he's here, he can calm me down enough to get through the psychosis safely.

I just don't know what to do or think