I have suffered from Anxiety/Panic Disorder for a long time. I have been on Paxil and Zoloft, but came to a point six months ago where I felt I would be able to cope without medication. Everything seemed fine.
Meanwhile, I have been with a wonderful man for almost a year. He is so loving, supportive, kind..I could go on and on. About 6 months ago I developed some severe anxiety about our relationship..doubts about whether he was right for me, and so on, that led me to have a panic attack whenever he came around. We worked through it, and all seemed well for awhile. Two months ago, we moved in together and I am developing severe anxiety, again, about whether he is right for me. Honestly, it seems that my expectations are messed up. I couldn't ask for a better partner, but I feel as though I'm obsessed with finding faults in the relationship. For example, sometimes, when he wants to make love, and I don't, I worry that I'm not attracted to him and that that must mean I don't love him. Then I get terrified of the idea that I don't love him and I end up having a severe panic attack. I am stuck in this horrible cycle of "I love him"/ "I don't love him". I'm so stuck in my own head, lately, I feel like I can barely see him for who he is. I don't know how to determine if this is my anxiety leading me around by the nose or if I'm honestly needing to give up the relationship.
Can someone please help point me in the right direction?