Hi agent. Welcome to PC.
This is not as good as it gets. People with BP disorder can live "normal" lives, and have good functioning.
I think it's very important to find the right treatment for you. Meds really make a difference. So does therapy.
Please, don't lose hope...
Would it be possible to see another pdoc for a second opinion on treatment?
You need to get your sleep patterns under control. Life is just unberable if you don't sleep...

There are lots of people w BP on this forum, very supportive. They are the living proof that life with BP doesn't have to be about suffering.
Take care