Hello Polly and to PC. I think the initial shock of a diagnosis is probably the hardest. Once you are able to come to terms with it, you will find it a bit easier. I've been diagnosed BP for a little over 2 years and still question at times if I wasn't miss diagnosed. You hear such bad things about it that one expects to be that bad. I just know being on my meds have changed me for the better. My family sees it and I see it. So I guess if the meds are helping that I must be BP. I really hope you find the right med cocktail quickly and are able to find some peace.