With the issues that you have mentioned it sounds like you have your hands full. I am glad that you are seeing people that can help you professionally ‘keep it up‘. Honesty is the only way to get good results though, so talk to them. By posting here I see that you are trying internally as well reaching to all avenues available. We all look for tools to aid us in bettering our lives, I am glad that you have acknowledged that and are looking for the results. Stop your self for a moment and allow your self to see that you are making positive changes. Just a little bit of praise coming from our selves goes along way. The person responsible for your success is you. Try not to look outward for what others need from you. The best gift of any kind comes without strings attached and from your heart.

I hope this helps a little