There may be triggers in here, i'm sorry. But i am currently FREAKING FREAKING FREAKING OUT HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just over a month ago i od'd on a lot of my psychiatric meds. I don't remember a lot of what happened once i got in the ambulance as i was in and out of conciousness. But i do remember someone in the hospital saying i may have damaged my heart.

Okay, so i'm taking epival, and one of the things to watch for is liver function. I've been on epival for several months and everytime they check it, my ALT is slightly elevated (like 62ish when 1-40 is 'normal') and my platelets are a little bit low, but range btwn 144-148, when 150-450 is normal. Well they want to increase my epival to 750mg, so last week they sent me for an up to date baseline to measure from there. Last month my liver was functioning in the range i just mentioned. TODAY when i go in they tell me my ALT is 258!!!! (platelets 135)... never ever in all these months has it gone above 62.

STUPID me, googles ALT on wiki just trying to get info, i was a little concened but mostly wanted to know what side effects may be serious enough to go in, as they've decided to increase the epival anyway. Then it mentions that increased ALT can be a sign of heart failure!!!!

OMG NOW i am FREAKING OUT!!! And in the middle of freaking out, i decide to take my blood pressure and it's 106/64. WHAT?!?! At least the top number should be elevated during a panic attack! So i'm thinking what, is my heart not working properly enough to even raise my bp?!?!?1?1

Yeah. PANIC. i want to cry. Yes, it was my fault for od'ing in the first place but OMG. I called the nurse at my doc's office and she got me in for tomorrow afternoon and they'll look at heart function testing.

Please, soemone talk me down! I'm so scared. I don't even know what to think!!! AND i have court tomorrow morning over my children. What a freaking time for this! ...

Thanks for listening. I need to calm down. Advice?!