JMo... I understand this completely. When I get back from this dang wedding and my family leaves, I will ping you more. But just wanted to say that it's totally understandable about your feelings. I've been in a similiar (not identical) situation and am not sure I would venture down that path again. Most people are not like your husband... there is bound to be either some attachment or some discomfort or some jealousy... Anyway, I'll get back with you later, but in the meantime, I just wanted to let you know that I understand and I'm sorry you're struggling right now. Hopefully you can feel the positive vibes from Portland to Texas...~~~