please hon take a little time and sit back and above all try to relax. I don't know what is going on in your life right now but to me you seem to be overwhelmed by emotions. just sit back relax and breathe. trust me it does get better. do you have any kind of hobbies? something anything to take your mind off whatever it is you are going thru at the moment? for just a little while. it really helps to get your mind busy with other things for just a little bit. please take care.