Relationships are tricky buggers, anxiety or no. They're so tricky that sometimes you don't know what you think or feel. That's why no matter who you are it's important to take your time and let things develop naturally. Whether you're meant to be or are in a practice relationship doesn't need to be a certainty yet, so don't be so hard on yourself. For some people it takes years before they know they truly love who they're with or that he or she is the one.

It does sound like anxiety is messing with you quite a bit though. Have you considered going back on medication? Are you seeing a therapist? It might not be a bad idea.

Sorry you're struggling but I'm glad you're here.

Cyran0