I don't know if this option is available where you are, but one of the hospitals nere has a crisis center. You can go in and talk to a counselor and/or a psychiatrist, and either leave eventually or decide to stay, in which case they can admit you directly from there.

If that is something any of the hospitals have near you, then it gives you a chance to maybe clarify what you need with the help of a professional, who can help you make the decison.

If tjhat's not available, what about just an appt with a psychiatrist to do the same thing, help you clarify your thoughts and feelings and what would help the best.