seems like the only thign beads is succeedign at rite now is avoiding anythign adn evrything that causes the negative feeligns to spring up. dont want them. tired of them.
dont really want to feel ANYTHING rite now becuse one way are another it all hurteds. talkign ta old T on phone today really maked it hit home about how alone we feel adn soooooooo scaired.
feel like curlign back up into a littel ball adn hideign under something agin.
mary