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Seshat · Mar 31, 2011, 12:26 AM

Hi guys. I don’t really how bad this might get so I’m posting it with a TW just in case. This happened last week and I thought I was over it, but today I realized I’m not and I need to get it off my chest.
I got home late because I had to attend this study group reunion and there was so much material to revise. The door looked somewhat odd and all of a sudden I thought “someone must have broken in” or something like it. I checked and nothing was missing but I was feeling terrible nevertheless. I phoned my aunt since I just needed to talk to somebody. I felt that anxiety was kicking in and I tried to keep calm, but as soon as I started talking I burst into tears. I was crying so much I almost hyperventilated. I couldn’t help it. I said I was sorry and I told her what had happened. She interrupted me, scolded me about crying and told me not to yell. WTF? I wasn’t yelling AT her. My voice tone changes dramatically when I cry, and I was scared. That’s all. Then she didn't let asked to talk to my mom. I was so hurt and so angry and I ended up not saying goodbye and crying even more. This is horrible and so unexpected. We’ve always got along well but she’s been acting weird for the past few months. For instance, I remember one day she mentioned that somebody had e-mailed her this article on how people shouldn’t complain at all (!). She’s been taking it way too seriously IMO. Every time somebody (especially me) needs to vent, she gets so annoyed and keeps telling us not to complain. I haven’t even seen her that much, so I honestly don’t think I did anything wrong. I’m seriously considering not telling her about my stuff ever again (I seldom did that, but still). Maybe I was just being utterly pessimistic and there may be another logical explanation for the door thing, but she made me feel guilty for being upset. *Sigh* Thank you guys for reading this.