((((((((((((((((((cats)))))))))))))))))) since we can't undo the past, the memory will be there, and it won't ever be a good one. But you are working hard , and in time it can recede to the point where you are stronger, and as you heal, the present and future will shine more strongly and the past memory will become less large. I don't know if this is clear; but it can happen; I can tell it's beginning to happen with memories that I have... I am finding it is not, after all, impossible to say, that time is OVER; I am here, now.
wishing you peace