Thank you to you both!
It is recent events which have sparked off these trains of though, again.
Have decided that i owe it to both of us and what we've had so far to give it a good couple of months to work on things. For now i will focus on getting it back to where we were and see if that helps allay my fears/questions. Maybe the nature of our relationship needs to change a bit.
Have spent this week thinking about what it'd be like without him, and the more i do, the more don't like it. Though i know his role could be filled by another, he cares about me so much. Must stop taking things for granted.
Thank you :-)