HI Lucy

Well, I have BPD and the feelings and thoughts you have, I have them too. The thing is that so many of those could be other disorders also. I would certainly discuss this more with you pdoc. Remember a diagnosis, is only a diagnosos. The main thing is controling these emotions you are having.

If it was me, I like to do my research. You can find all sorts of info out there including BPD. There are even the traits of BPD that you can check out. But I urge you to talk to your pdoc also.