i'd be very confused over the way the friend treats you. i'm not positive that i'd call him a friend right now. and some of this could be attributed to immaturity, but that doesn't help you a lot. if you can find a therapist/counselor/trusted adult to talk to, i'd do it. it sounds as if this is reallly hurting you and it makes me feel sad for you to sound so down about this. i only have one or two good friends and i know how important it is to feel accepted. please keep me posted and PM me any time. xoxoxo pat