(((((((broken hearted)))))))

You are entitled to feel whatever it is that you feel - even though you just labeled yourself "crazy".

You need to think AGAIN about all the situation with your husband and look more closely at what his actions and words mean to you. And why...
After figuring out what exactly everything means to you - (by examining your immediate reaction) you can try to question this: just an example:
"If he left today early for work, does it REALLY MEAN that he doesn`t want to spend more time with me?"
What else can this mean? etc etc etc....

Awareness is the first step. I am happy for your that you are aware you have this problem...how can you drop something that you even don`t know you are holding...?
You are doing great with trying to see thing differently. I am sure it will help a lot your relationship with your husband.

Dependency is a huge issue with BPD...isn`t it? We need to find our inner strength...our internal stability will not be shaken, then, by every little thing that happen in our every day life.