my s/i-ing seems to have taken a wrong turn somehow. there seems to be a needed pattern evolving. its not just random cutting when things are too much anymore. its a need to see and feel alittle more each time too. i need to see more bl**d, more cuts, and alittle deeper too, and the strokes longer. otherwise it doesnt seem satisfying. if not done right i just keep thinking about it till i do it over right. getting worst rather than better.