(((((((((((Liam)))))))))))))

It feels awful when we don't get what we need from session.

I wonder if the other big thing you had going on in your life affected how therapy felt? I know that when I have big, hard things going on, sometimes it feels extra hard to connect with T...because I am so raw, and vulnerable and I need exactly what I need, and of course, he's not perfect, so if he misses the mark in those times it feels so so so so much worse than other times. When I have something big happening outside of session, something T might say/do that would normally roll off of me might end up feeling SO HUGE. And then I feel disconnected, and the session just goes downhill from there.

It sounds like you did what you needed to do for you outside of therapy, and it sounds like you have good awareness about how the session felt. You don't have to decide right now whether or not you will talk to her about it next time, or how you will bring it up. Right now, I wonder if you can let yourself rest, after what sounds like a really hard day?

Be gentle with you. You are working very hard.