Thank you everyone for your support. I cannot believe how incredibly BAD today was, all round. I not only do not have the mental/physical energy to explain it at this time, i have a raging headache and no tylenol, so i'll bbl to vent about so many things that were not good. I'm angry, sad, depressed, hopeless, headachy, scared.. i wish there was an 'undo' button for days like today.