It COULD be that the fit isn't good with your T and you need someone who is more directive, or it could be that she is going to help you if you stick with it and try to deal with the way she does therapy.

It doesn't sound to ME like the worst session ever, but that's because I'm not you. I can understand your frustration, but I think your T is doing her job correctly according to her orientation. Most of the Ts I've had have left it up to me to lead the therapy. In fact, out of the 5 I've had, my current T is the only one who often has an agenda, but she still leaves the subject up to me.

It's YOUR therapy. Your T can't make you do anything. I don't think that would be helpful in the long run.

My T also wants me to express my feelings in my sessions, and not just in my emails. She says it's always been in my head, and that's not healing. I need to FEEL, and do it in the sessions. So, your T isn't wrong about feelings. What do you think is important to concentrate on if it's not feelings? Well, my former T was behavorially oriented and focused more on solutions, not feelings. So, do you want a different kind of therapy that is solution/oriented instead?

I'm sorry you think therapy is a waste and are having such a hard time with your T right now. It does seem like you ARE accomplishing something but it's painful and maybe that's why you're so upset. Hang in there. I think something good WILL come from your sticking it out.