((((((((((Rainbow)))))))))))

I REALLY didn't want meds, but finally hit a low enough bottom that I was willing to try anything. I have klonopin for anxiety - got that during the worst of the trauma stuff, when we first started talking about it and the newness was literally almost completely overwhelming me. I took (and take) as needed and it helps take the edge off.

I started Wellbutrin and I was terrified, but I just promised myself I could try it for 2 weeks and if I hated it, i could go off of it. There are quite a few posts around here somewhere all about my freak-out about deciding to take it. And you know what? I loved it. i took myself off, but I'm thinking about starting again.

Remember, it's not black and white. Nothing is forever. It is perfectly okay to try it, to decide "this isn't for me" and to stop taking it.

My H took meds for anxiety for a while and it totally rewired his brain. he had debilitating anxiety - truly- and after a couple of years on the meds, he went off and the anxiety was gone. It was like it gave him this period of time to experience the world as an anxiety-free place and those experiences made new connections in his brain. he is generally so much happier now. It's a gift.

I tell my drs and dentist I'm on them and they ask what for and I say depression and they SO don't care, really.

What are you MOST afraid of? I was a little afraid I'd be all better and not need T anymore...but it wasn't like that at all. I was just better enough to be able to do some really good and healing work with T.