It was one of the most emotional (nonemotional) sessions I have been in. In the beginning I was sitting in the floor listening to my music, and I cry. Sobbed. Once the music was over I got back on the couch and just sat there like a stone. She sat there as well. Almost as if she were waiting for me to say something. After 10 minutes or so, she finally started asking me some things. I didn't answer much of anything she said.

I was hoping that I would have a breakthrough point and feel so much better, but I didn't. I couldn't go there for some reason. My thoughts went to how I long to just be held. Have someone hold me and make me feel loved and safe. This is when I started crying again. She asked me what the tears were about. I said, "I don't know". I did not want to tell her. We have talked about my marriage for the past year. Nothing is going to change, so why bring it up again.

She kept on asking me "Your tears tell me that you feeling something. Can you tell me what you are feeling?

Dead silence. Once again she asked, "Squiggle, why have you come today? What do you need to happen in this session? What do you need from me today?"

I didn't say a word. Just looked at her and said nothing.