I don't know why my apartment complex insists on doing inspections 4 times a year and spraying toxic pesticides around me and my pet, but they do.

I am so AFRAID of this inspection, Terrified. Last time I did not have my dog, but I was home alone and it was just two strange men who came into my home. I eventually learned the one man was a maintenance man.

I learned this AFTER a few weeks later he opened up my door unannounced, while I was sleeping and I was running to get my robe off the back of my chair and he caught me in my pajamas, which quite honestly was not all cover, appropriate pajamas. I have avoided everything to do with him since. He had no right coming in my apartment unannounced.

I feel like these people own me. Like my home isn't my home. They said "you don't have to be present for the inspection". But not only would I not allow strangers in my home without me, but I have a doberman and I highly doubt she's going to let them anywhere past the door.

Not to mention I'm a people pleaser and I am stressing out about the tidiness of my apartment and what people will think of me.

After he showed up unannounced last time I cried for 4 hours straight. My main diagnosis is PTSD, from men. So yes strange men coming in my home scares me beyond reason. I know that my dog is here and that she will protect me, but I still feel really uneasy about this all after that incident.

And then my dad made it worse by saying "he knew what he was doing. A young girl living alone. He's a pervert!"

So now I am really really freaking out and I can't stop my mind from racing... What do I do!?

And they gave me no specific time, so no one can be here with me.