Thank you guys
I think I just needed something more from him and he wasn't giving more. He treated me good but great. I know the fireworks end up disappearing but even the hugs, kiss, etc weren't same. We worked hard in our relationship and I guess I just gave up trying to make him better. but it still hurts a lot...
I know I may never keep the fireworks for long but I would love to keep that "something" you get of being with someone, that feeling that you're the center of his world... and I felt neglected, felt his friends meant more to him and I was always last in his mind. So maybe I did do the right thing even if I still love him to pieces...

Thank you for reading and for your thoughts =)