Lava - I understand. I severed ties with my family on the most part because of the emotional toll it takes on me. I know I too have felt reduced to a child by nothing more than an off-hand word. Take care of yourself and know this is not abnormal...what was done to you is the abnormal part and you are coping the best you know how. Be patient with yourself - when abuse happens so young, it creates an indelible mark, so hard to erase. Let the feelings out and acknowledge them. You have made tremendous progress in the time you've been on PC and I believe you will keep heading in that direction. Hang in there - CSC