I left a message for T. I just told him (very briefly) what's been going on - how much I feel like I've grown AND how I'm getting into this people-pleasing FEAR mode and I'm scared to death of affecting my relationships. I asked if we could talk for a minute to help me sort out in my head if I need to come back or if I should keep taking a break and trying to work through this on my own.

I remember when I was trying to choose a therapist. I talked to a couple of the phone, and T was one of them, and he was so gentle. He didn't try to convince me to see HIM...he just listened and helped me work through the process of deciding. He said "pay attention and you'll know the right thing to do". I know he won't tell me what to do, but that he'll help me figure out what I want and need.

He has trainings and supervision groups on Fridays a lot. I hope this isn't one of those Fridays, but I have a feeling it might be, in which case I won't hear from him (or will hear late late this afternoon).