There is so many things. So much is happenning at the same time. My heart is broken in pieces. I'm trying very hard to cope with all this but I am overwhemed. I'm trying not to let my friend's suicide bring me too much down while dealing with all the other blows that are coming to me one after another. It is so hard. I am strong but I wish life could give me a small break here, let me catch my breath.

Thank you so so much! I'm sorry, it's hard for me to talk about what is going wrong for me. I'm so use to keep things inside. So use to hide everything. My mother did such a good work raising me! So hard for me to ask for help. I'm so sad. I cannot even support anyone here.

Thank you!