Dear John, welcome to PC and to our little lifeboat!! I am DXed with bipolarbearianII and am on four meds. I have no insurance...so, I know how you're feeling.

Can you find a support group? I've tried to go to one, but invariably I have to close, where I work, on the night they meet.

Any close friend that you can talk to? A minister? Family? Can you find a county/state clinic in your area? I get my meds at a clinic. I also see a Pdoc there.

There are hundreds of people here who are in your same shoes. Please keep posting and we'll do all we can to help you. PM me if you need to. We also have a therapist online, here, that you can ask questions.

I'm so sorry that you're having so much pain right now. It is very hard to "get out" when you are severely depressed. We understand.

xoxoxo pat