I agree with WePow about the pre-verbal stuff. There was no language for what was going on with me when it was happening and it still is something that is just with me that doesn't have a name. I could sit with my T for a month of Sundays and never name it. I will have to just accept it someday I guess.
I think I also know how to react, or am more used to people in authority being angry with me. It is hard for me to accept people being nice to me, giving me compliments etc. because I was used to being around angry demanding parents. Is that more comfortable for you?