Go see your T. I love walking out on the jetties and I love the ocean but I know I have to stay away when I am feeling like you are feeling because the power of the ocean makes me feel like it would be so easy for it to just swallow me up and make me disappear.Unfortunately I know that's where I want to go when I feel like that. ( talk about a battle in my brain) Get all the support your T can give you. That new little granddaughter needs a her wonderful grandmother to love her and spoil her.Congratulations!