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Originally Posted by Suratji
One thing I love about going to T is that I can let it all out. No masks, no hiding - just trying to find ME. I want to be as authentic as possible and that has meant going to some painful places but if I can't do it with T, where else will I be able to just absolutely be myself with nobody's expectations of who they think I should be in play? (I think the previous sentence is ungrammatical, but what the heck)
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I totally understand. When I first started treatment for severe depression, I was raising 3 boys, born within 17months of each other(a single, and a set of identical twins) teaching full time in public school, teaching religion class on the weekend, my husband was a sales manager and out of town most of the week and abusive when he was home, and all I really wanted to do was crawl under a rock and die. I had a mask for every occasion, including therapy. Then one day my T ask me what I was really feeling. I crumbled. Then the real therapy could begin. Let your T see the real you.You will keep your masks for the places you need the like I did and in some cases still do, but throw away the one that you use in therapy.It is hard and scary. Write him a note if you have to with the question you need him to ask you that will help you to tall him what's really going on. Tell him about your masks and how they function for you. It's really important because he can't help you if he can't see you. Give him/her a chance. Good Luck.
