I haven't been here in for a little while again, was in hospital, again. I saw my t twice the week before and apparently had used the 2 weeks off over the holidays to build up another wall around me. I felt like I had shut my t out and didn't want to let her in again. I was so scared of getting so dependent. Talk about black and white thinking! Complete dependence or complete withdrawal. When will I begin to see the gray?
Well, just wanted to explain where I have been and to let you all know that you are always in my thoughts if I am here or not. HUGS