I really did not feel any painful emotions while I was in session. I was more numb than anything. The only reason I teared up was because I had brought music with me. Those songs really touched me. I always cry to those songs, so that was no big deal and had nothing to do with painful emotions. (I am sure my therapist will disagree. She always does!)

Yes, I think it was the WORST session I have ever had. It was terrible, awful, horrible, a catastrophy! I am not sure why some or you see this as a breakthrough. Please fill me in because I totally see this as a FAILURE!

I feel like a STUPID IDIOT! That is how I felt and how I feel now. To add to that, anger is raging. I am so mad about it, I could......well, I don't know what I could do, but it is probably not something I would confess on here!

I wonder what she was thinking. Probably something like, "I wish you would get your big fat ***** off my couch and go home! You are not talking anyway and you are wasting my time! Go home you pathetic loser! Don't let the door hit you in the ***** on the way out! Don't bother coming back until you can get your act together! I have better things to do than sit here and look at you sitting here staring at the wall!