I will take your guidance and I will try to write down to my brother. Even if it's just that I love him and I don't forget him.

My mother did something very wrong last spring and she has put me badly in a mess. I did got out of that mess but that's because I never quit trying. She told lies after lies to my baby brother about me and now she is scare of us getting in conact because he will know what she told him wasn't true and she also knows he loves me.

My doctor told me I must not go to work right now because my shoulder blade is too much damaged. I'm waiting for a call from a specialist. I might have to wait a long time. In the mean time no money is coming in. Rent is coming fast, there is no food in my fridge or my cupboards, utilities are not paid and I can't pay my medications. The constant physical pain is also hard to deal with but I'm managing to push it aside. I'm trying to come out with some kind of crafts I could do at home that wouldn't be hard on my shoulder and sell my work on a marquet. I'm good with my hands so that is helping me a lot. ( Trying to get positive here).

I think I have complain enough for the last 2 days. I'm sorry!

Thank you so much everyone! I love you all so much!

Pat, you are very welcome in my home for that cup of tea. Thank you!