Thanks to Squiggle I got the idea to ask T if we could sit on the floor. She had never done it before but she agreed. I will never go back to sitting on couch. I love being on the floor and it has nothing to do with feeling childlike.

I am very comfortable sitting cross-legged and it feels very very natural. It feels a lot more intimate with T and I feel very grounded. Now when I think about returning to chairs, it makes me feel nervous like I'd be hanging without support or something.

And I'm definitely not a teenager and I'm definitely not slim and trim but I can't imagine doing therapy again in chairs. I can't explain it exactly but it feels much safer and solid.