Squiggle, you know something? I REALLY LIKE YOU !!!
You are not nuts at all. And yes, I was thinking "YAY! Squiggle. You are doing such a good job expressing your feelings!"

And yes, it is OK for you to say "SHUT UP!"

But we won't 'round here ... because your talking this out is healthy.

You know, there have been times in my sessions when my T would make me so mad... and I told him that... but he would grin from ear to ear with his teeth showing - just like that green icon guy! I really hated him in times like that!!! But he knew he was right. And just like you, so did I. But that didn't stop me from being upset.

What I have learned is that it is OK to have those big anger emotions! It is OK to not be happy about things or with others. It is OK to feel what you are feeling right now in your own way.

I really do like you a lot after reading this post from you just now. Why? Because you were being so aunthentic and real. And THAT is what your T is trying to bring out in you.

Authenticity of the person is far more precious than moving about life trying to please others all the time. It also takes a heck of a lot less energy in the long run. Be mad and rant and rage. You deserve the freedom to do that!