What i dont feel comfortable with is, how can i lead a healthy social life, or trust that i am; if i can not be subjective. I hope someone understands what i am tring to say. I have no shame, i have no secrets. Yet vanity is a prime variable in living a healthy social life. is this going to become a parasite later in life? or is it okay to be comfortable with being mentaly self-sufficient? ...like i said, i am by no doubt a misanthrope. which normaly entails anxiety, panic, and obsessivness. Which is the exact oppiset of who i am. Where's it coming from? And why is it beging to rule my life?