Welcome welcome welcome....
You came to the right place, to let this problem your experiencing in your life all out and loose. I figure if they can't see me, then how can I be embarrassed. It's a good way to release things you normally wouldn't. Healthy too.

I can't really give you advice about your problem, but I can assure you, your not a crazy lunatic. A crazy person wouldn't even be aware that this type of thinking is abnormal.

You sound completely sane to me with your happy youth filled life. It's just everybody has strange thoughts after something traumatic happens in their life. It's the brains way of coping with what happened.

My advice would ultimately be to just be open to your parents, get the help you need, and work through it. You can do it.

Good Luck, keep up the good work.
Desirae