Thanks SS

I have woken up today feeling alot better I got up at 6am, cleaned the house and saw to a heap on unopened letters! I have spoken with my brother and explained what all this is doing to me. He promised to start taking more responsibility for himself. Only time will tell. As for me and my husband...there's tension in the air but atleast we're not ripping into eachother!

I have aload of washing to do.... I let things build up when not feeling great...thank God for the days where I have energy to catch up with everything.

I have also applied to the Open University to start an introductory course in counselling. I don't think I could ever make it as a counsellor but it's more for personal development

My urge to contact ex 't' is going away again and I am so glad I resisited to urge to txt him! God knows where that road would have taken me. I just need to be reminded that when I do want to contact him, it's not for the right reasons and need to find love and support along the correct channels. Saying that, it's mighty hard to see that when I am so deep in a bad place.

Anyway, today is a good day and I am going to make the most of it I am going to need to keep a tab of how I am feeling.... I don't want to get too high and then come crashing down again. But again, while it is happening, it's hard for me too see. Might ask my husband to give me a lil wake up call if I start floating away......

thanks again all! Muchly appreciated! xx