Listen...I have posted this fact elsewhere in these forums so I will say as little about me as possible....

Someone said the same thing to me.I od'd and went into convulsions and a coma...was almost unplugged.Was the equivalent of an 8 year old for 4 years...supposed to be left in a nursing home because I was unable to think or care for me properly.

I also have been a cutter...to the point of 72 stitches in arm.

Let me inform you that the emotional damage my behaviors had on anyone who discovered these facts are stains on each and every soul that learned of it.Stains I can't wash away.I was 33...you are 18.

The damage we do when we self harm is like an undertow.It draws everything further and further out to sea and traps you in its cycle unless you find how to swim out sideways then back to shore...sideways...meaning you learn how to move through this properly to make it out.(just read about undertows)

So you are 18 and someone said you should do humanity a favor and destroy you.Well at 18...you aren't even who you have the potential to become.And anyone who'd tell you that is doing humanity less a favor than you.Because they know nothing and said an evil thing and now look.

Chances are you'd survive whatever you attempt and be damaged for life just like me.Chances are that the effects your choice has on anyone who finds out will do any of the following...cause someone to do what you did....end in permanent damage...end a life which was destined to do more than you can know....permanently stain the lives of those who love you...rob people in your future from having the chance to know you.

You aren't who you will be.I wasn't who I ended up being.Not to pat me on the back,but I think my living assisted others on their journey in this world a bit...since that fateful day.I chose to do some good things since then.Something as little as helping an old person,petting a lonely dog,smiling at a person having a bad day,reaching out to someone who hurts can ripple an outward effect which ripples from there and so on.So everything you do is a precursor to other things.

You aren't useless...because you have two arms to hug with or open a door for someone...a mouth to say..."I'm sorry"...to say..."let's talk about this"...a mind to be educated to do anything you choose to do with your career/job opportunities...a new day every morning to choose to assess your thinking and attempt to "Do a little better today"....

Who do you love/care for in this world?Would you be happy if they or anyone at all killed them self? Would you be happy if some horrific thing happened to people you don't like?

Imagine anyone in the world you ever fancied killing their self
...how'd that sit with you?

Nothing goes well for absolute PILES and MILES of humans for loooonnnngggg spans of time...then it shifts...gets better ...or the small moments of little things that are good which occur sporadically within those long spans...are even enough to keep making you say whoa that was bit- chen...so cool I was here to know that,see that,feel that,be there,help him/her.

So you think on this.

Huggggsssss to you 18 year old.I have a 19 year old son...if I lost him...I would be destroyed!

Wolf