The last 6 weeks took me right by surprise. I know I must not bring the pass with what I'm dealing with in present time because I will not make it. Everytime a thing from the pass comes forwards I try to block it. I know I must not go there.

It's hard to deal with because I have no close support. None at all but myself and my strength and my knowledge from my life experience.

I also know that if I give you, in here, a chance, you will support me the best you can. You are all kind people and I know that and I do not forget. I just need to ask. That is a hard part for me to do. And you can just give me support by what I say. None of you are living close to me, if I don't say it, you cannot know. I keep that in mind too.

I really really do appreciate your support. Each and everyone of you are so special. I mean this!

Thank you so much!
with all my love
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