Ugh that sounds bad! To put it in perspective, from my friend who is in med school. there are 2 career paths to becoming a psychiatrist. One is, some people start medical school with a lot of empathy for the mentally ill, and for them it's a natural vocation. The other is, psychiatry is the easiest specialty in med school... so the least motivated students get into it. My experience definitely bears this out too, there are very good psychiatrists and very bad ones. Sorry you found it didn't help- can you lean more on a psychologist or a therapist after this?